A few of us, when given the chance, will flee, chameleon-like,
unconditionally into the pale arms of the pain bringers. Most will
figuratively remain
forever behind the race wall, proud, girding, fighting, always fighting,
ever and
relentlessly defending all that is really worth defending-the
fountainhead, the
dark hearth, the drawn bow string, the beleaguered last
tenderness-defining
the spirit.
from DEFENDING THE SPIRIT A Black Life in America
by RANDALL ROBINSON 1998
Until It Comes...
Until It goes...
 
 
 
Until It’s True...
 
 
 
Until it Rubs...
Songs of the spirit harness an energy
from light shed on the struggles of the peoples
& reinforces a photosynthetic process
that leads to impossible contradictions.
Oxidation is a slow but sure transformation
that outlives impatience & lifts
the song to the inevitable confluence of power.
So many times, in the throws of resistance,
on the edge of urgency, I’ve heard my heart
beating in the drums of my ears.
For to long my dreams have been
locked away in a cedar chifforobe
waiting for democracy to come true.
The way to freedom is through improvisation,
because liberty is not yet a reality.
We don’t know how to be free.
The world we want awaits confluence,
a braiding together of values & resources.
We are a nation addicted to privileges.
An experiment still, rats racing up
ladders & down winding corridors.
First escape, then find
ways to hide in the open.
Patterns of stars are not calculated,
the course of change is not sure.
But resistance is precise.
Freedom does not come & go like summer.
Nor does it ring true like colloquialisms.
It is more of a perpetual process
of respiration like breathing.
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Beyond ideology, it is evolutionary osmosis,
Kujichagulia for the human spirit.
Defending the spirit, until it comes.
Like solo singing soul rises to aCapella purity.
& then it comes...
We who believe in spirits believe it comes.
What is it, this allusive uncommon muse?
This continuum of self-determination?
What is it?
& with the question, it goes.
With insecurity & remorse it goes...
An interrogation of bounty,
of safety, of paradise puts utopia at risk
but we cannot rest benign, we cannot
leave well enough alone.
Swollen vanity is misplaced
as long as oppression persist.
We who believe in freedom cannot rest.
Our hymns are hollow, our prayers are corrupt
& we are a fraud, when we celebrate
the hypocrisy & the heartless legacy
of American conquest.
The biggest illusion is control.
The greatest danger is hopelessness.
We cannot rest so we believe until it comes
until it comes...
We who believe in justice cannot assimilate
until it goes...
We who believe in democracy cannot surrender
until it’s true...
We who believe in music cannot fail
until it rubs...